54 days....

Some say that being engaged is the hardest part of the relationship. I say that they've got it just about right. I know that it sure has been for me and my girl. Somedays we feel like we can make it without doing anything too risky and other times we're just hoping the day come faster :D I love my Jay and I think that even though she's probably the only one who's going to read this I think everyone should know how much she means to me. Sometimes I just sit and wonder how I'm going to make her proud. How I'm going to help her dreams come true. I know that I'm doing fine just being the man that I am but I won't be fine in my heart. I know she deserves the best that I can give her. Learning about the family and how the father needs to provide for the family and do everything he can to make sure that his wife is able to take care of the children without worry of finances or anything else.Truely I hope to have her be able to stay and hlep our children grow and learn what they need to to know who they are and what they are capable of in this world. I'm grateful everyday that I have to grow and improve for her and our future family. I pray that I can stay true to her and always show her how much she means to me. The Lord knew what he was doing when he set me up with her ;).

Writing About Myself

I really don't do very well with writing about myself, probably because I never took the time to sit down and list all of the things that I'd done. Now that I have to for class I see that I really didn't do anything more than just get by. I find it hard to do these things but Jamie really likes to do that. Again, one of the many reasons why I really need her in my life. Now this essay is supposed to be two pages long, but keep the reader interested the whole time. I personally don't know if I have done all that much to fill up two pages. I guess that's where the fluff comes in to play. I was always a hard facts writing person and only wrote things that I needed to. I wonder if I could live everything over again would I do the same or would I try to put more things into it that would make me a "better candidate" to be accepted into a program? I think they should have an interviewer for every person trying to get into the program to see who the person is and not what they can write about themselves. I hope that I can learn something from Jay and the other people that will be correcting this because if I really do want to get somewhere in academia I need to be able to win by their rules.

Anything is doable only if you put the time and effort into it.

As this semeseter starts I'm sitting in a classroom waiting for the class to start. This semester looks like it will really kick my butt if I let it. I'm taking 6 classes (17 credits), and working close to 35 hrs a week. My fiance is worried that I'll go through some really tough times with all that I have to do, but I think I'm one that does well under pressure. When I have a lot to do I'm actually doing those things, but when I have very little to do I barely accomplish them. I know that just being at these places (work, school) is about 50 hours so I'll be busy, but I know that if I put myself into this and love every minute of it I'll do well.

The Spirit of Christmas

It's taken me a while to get around to writing this down, but I think I've finally soaked it all in. As just about everyone may know by now I've asked Jamie Madsen to marry me for time and all eternity, and I did this a few days before Christmas. When I did I almost made her cry because she was so overwhelmed with joy. I really felt like it was Christmas at that point in time because we both gave all of ourselves to each other. Commited to each other that we would work together through any and every obstacle that we should face in life. I know that we will still later make a more enhanced commitment to each other but right then and there I think I felt the true spirit of Christmas. Never before have I put myself into a gift like I did that night. I want to thank her for helping me feel that spirit and even more that she said "Yes"! I'm the luckiest guy!

To break or not to break that is the question.

So many things to do just to get an education.  I've noticed that as I've gone through college so far you need to put a lot of effort into pleasing the professor than really getting something out of it.  Only in a few classes have I felt like I've really learned something.  At the end of the semester there is so much stress in the air that its contagious to everyone surrounding the campus.  My problem has been to regulate my time between work and play.  Lately I've taken to playing more than working. It may be in part to the monster television and Xbox, but it really comes down to managing my time wisely.  I was talking with Jay just yesterday and we talked about moderation in all things.  I think that we do need to moderate between the two.  Work a little, play a little. Work hard, play hard.  That's what I need to do find the balance, my zen...

Starting the Blog!

Well starting on this project I was really excited and with the help of my lovely assistant I was able to create a pretty legit blog. Thank you my lovely assistant :D
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