The Path of Progress

If you ever have seen a little child learning to walk, you've seen me at this time in my life. Success and failure are the steps and slips that we have throughout our life and the only way to reach those loving arms that are outstretched for us is to keep on walking towards them. School has been demanding and I sometimes wonder if I'm going to be able to get up after I fall with some quizes or concepts. I even have personal struggles and trials that I go through recently. I feel great and I'm doing awesome one week and I'm down and out for a few hours, but in all this I need to remember those spring flowers in the midst of winter. I'm very grateful for all of the people who help me through these tough times. Especially Jay. I try so hard to help her be happy everyday, but I'm not so happy everyday. Having a companion through tough times though makes it that much more bareable. I know how to improve I just don't put in the effort to accomplish it sometimes. I pray for help and strength everyday to become better. Even though I don't see it I'm sure I do become better, each and every day.

Starting off on the right foot.

This week I've been learning about the 'right way' to do things: write a paper, take accounting of books, set and achieve goals. I feel like Heavenly father is teaching me how to do these things now so I can use them at a later date. I've learned that sometimes I don't get the opportunity to have someone teach me what I need to know. Sometimes I need to experience it on my own and learn from it that way, but it does feel good to now how to start off right. Me and Jay just went and started rent on our future home. It felt so good to start to see our names together and actually have something we can call 'Our Place'. I'm really excited about it, and I know that sometimes its going to be tough, but it definitely is not worth it to quit. Especially if you start out on the right foot ;)

54 days....

Some say that being engaged is the hardest part of the relationship. I say that they've got it just about right. I know that it sure has been for me and my girl. Somedays we feel like we can make it without doing anything too risky and other times we're just hoping the day come faster :D I love my Jay and I think that even though she's probably the only one who's going to read this I think everyone should know how much she means to me. Sometimes I just sit and wonder how I'm going to make her proud. How I'm going to help her dreams come true. I know that I'm doing fine just being the man that I am but I won't be fine in my heart. I know she deserves the best that I can give her. Learning about the family and how the father needs to provide for the family and do everything he can to make sure that his wife is able to take care of the children without worry of finances or anything else.Truely I hope to have her be able to stay and hlep our children grow and learn what they need to to know who they are and what they are capable of in this world. I'm grateful everyday that I have to grow and improve for her and our future family. I pray that I can stay true to her and always show her how much she means to me. The Lord knew what he was doing when he set me up with her ;).

Writing About Myself

I really don't do very well with writing about myself, probably because I never took the time to sit down and list all of the things that I'd done. Now that I have to for class I see that I really didn't do anything more than just get by. I find it hard to do these things but Jamie really likes to do that. Again, one of the many reasons why I really need her in my life. Now this essay is supposed to be two pages long, but keep the reader interested the whole time. I personally don't know if I have done all that much to fill up two pages. I guess that's where the fluff comes in to play. I was always a hard facts writing person and only wrote things that I needed to. I wonder if I could live everything over again would I do the same or would I try to put more things into it that would make me a "better candidate" to be accepted into a program? I think they should have an interviewer for every person trying to get into the program to see who the person is and not what they can write about themselves. I hope that I can learn something from Jay and the other people that will be correcting this because if I really do want to get somewhere in academia I need to be able to win by their rules.

Anything is doable only if you put the time and effort into it.

As this semeseter starts I'm sitting in a classroom waiting for the class to start. This semester looks like it will really kick my butt if I let it. I'm taking 6 classes (17 credits), and working close to 35 hrs a week. My fiance is worried that I'll go through some really tough times with all that I have to do, but I think I'm one that does well under pressure. When I have a lot to do I'm actually doing those things, but when I have very little to do I barely accomplish them. I know that just being at these places (work, school) is about 50 hours so I'll be busy, but I know that if I put myself into this and love every minute of it I'll do well.